Friday, July 29, 2011

Routine, Routine

Yup, back to a routine.
When we brought Sadie home, I told my hubby that she WOULD be on a routine, well at least for the nightime.
And she was.
We did bathtime around 9pm, lotioned her up, put her in her pjs, nursed her and off to bed she went.
We had her sleeping through the night at 2 months!
I thought, "Ha, no sleepless nights for me, my baby already sleeps through the night!".
Yea well that didn't last long.
At about 4 months she started waking up in the middle of the night again and taking longer to go back to sleep.
Hello under eye bags!
Our little routine that we had started lasted for, oh maybe a month or a month and a half.
So I decided that it was time to start a routine back up and here is how it goes:
Sadie usually wakes up officially around 8 (after waking up at like 3am and then going back to sleep).
We make daddy his lunch for work and then play.
She has her oatmeal with fruit between 10 and 11.
I've been trying to get her to nap around 12 but lately it's been more like 2 or 3, if that.
She gets her veggies between 6 and 7.
Bathtime is between 7 and 8, then storytime, feeding and hopefully off to Dreamland.
What? You only feed her oatmeal, fruits and veggies? You might ask me.
Nope, she nurses about every 2 to 2 1/2 hours still.
Last night was the first night of our new bathtime routine and she woke up at 1am but then slept till 8.
I'm hoping with the new routine she'll sleep better.
If you have any ideas to help me out, let me know!
Texting her "dada".

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

A New Perspective

It's amazing how much your life changes when you have a baby. Your thoughts are different, your actions are different. It's like you're a whole new person. Let me might add that your life changes after you get married. You learn how to live with another person, share your life and personal space, compromise, and the list goes on.

My life really changed when I met my husband. I was going through some hard times, maybe not really living like I should. I'm a saved individual of Christ and I was definitely not living that way. My family life definitely wasn't the greatest. Then Corey came along. He didn't seem to care about all that stuff, he just seemed to care about me. He made me see things differently and act differently. Act in a way that I probably should have been acting all along. Corey is a preacher so you might say that his actions might be scrutinized a little more than others and if I was gonna date him than my actions were most likely gonna be scrutinized as well. He showed me how to love unconditionally and be there for people. He has helped my trust issues and shown me that someone can be there for you all the time. Corey has helped turn my life around for the better and I love him for that. I probably don't say it enough or show him as much I should but if you're reading this honey, I appreciate everything you have done for me and continue to do for me.

Now onto having a baby. We were surprised when we found out we were pregnant. It was not planned but we were happy none the less. We worried throughout the pregnancy of whether or not we were gonna be good parents and what parenting would be like. It's somewhat different than what we were thinking, but in a good way. I love being the mother to my beautiful little girl. I thank God everyday for letting me be her mother and I strive to raise her in the way that God would want me to. Sadie is such a happy, bubbly little girl already at almost 6 months (really!, half a year already!!).

Your whole world changes when you have a baby, from the way you speak to the way you see things and your perspectives on everything. I watch Law and Order: SVU and I probably shouldn't because it makes me so sad thinking if something that would happen to my baby. I also dreamt the other day that some strange man came into our room, picked her up and threatened to take her. It FREAKED me out! The love you have for your baby is so strong that it hurts just thinking about something bad happening to them. I definitely have that momma bear mentality and now know how my mom feels about us.

Your world not only changes with thoughts about your baby but the way you see yourself. I believe I have dealed with a little bit of post partum depression. Not a whole lot, I mean I love my baby and love doing everything for her but there are times when I have felt really down. My self image definitely took a turn for the worse. Before pregnancy, I was always a skinny person and could wear the small sizes of clothes and look pretty decent in them but boy did that change after pregnancy. I really enjoyed looking pregnant because I wanted everyone to know I was but after I had Sadie my expectations of what I would look like were not met. I had to have a C-section and when I got home from the hospital and saw my stomach for the first time I was in horror. Stretch marks unfortunatley took over at the end of my 7 months of pregnancy and when I saw the saggy pouch that was left over I almost wanted to cry. I did not feel attractive although my husband told me everyday that I was. I didn't have a body image and it's something I'm still dealing with. When I went to buy some new clothes after the pregnancy, it was kinda shock to me to buy the size of pants that I had to buy. I've never been one who worried much about my body but all of a sudden I noticed everything ugly about it and just wanted to hide. My thoughts are getting better as I'm losing more weight and my clothes are fitting better but it's something I still struggle with. I've kinda slowly started to work out but it's hard to get motivated. I do hope to be slimmer by November for my brother in laws wedding though.

A baby also makes you more mature, or well it should. I'm 23 but I still feel young sometimes, like I'm not old enough to be married or have a baby. But marriage and a baby cause you to grow up. I remember reconnecting with an old friend, we were best friends for 14 years, had a big fight, didn't speak to each other for about 4 years and then I decided to reconnect with her. It was amazing to me that she still acted like she did 4 years ago. It made me kinda sad. I'm thankful that I had the opportunity to mature and become an adult. I'm thankful that I'm able to raise my precious baby girl and that she has given me a whole new perspective on life and the things I do.

Monday, July 25, 2011

Missing my momma....

I'm missing my momma, we live 3 hours away from each other, so here are a few pics.....

The family at church

Grammie and Sweet Pea the day she was born


My beautiful momma

At Pismo Beach for her birthday

These are a few of my favorite things......

Sadie is napping (finally!) so I thought I would share a few of my favorite things:
-Waking up to my very smiley baby girl
-Kisses from my hubby
-The way my baby girl grabs my face and kisses me (the most precious thing ever!)
-Chocolate......need I say more....
-Listening to my hubby preach
-Watching Sadie Grace reach milestones, from rolling over to eating solids to the beginning stages of crawling
-The way my hubby sneaks peaks at me from across the room when he doesn't think I'm looking :)
-Cuddling in bed with my two loves
-Watching Sadie Bug get super excited when she sees the doggy and then yells at him
-Blowing raspberries on Sadie's tummy and listen to her scream in excitement
-Cooking, I love it! even though I don't cook as much as I would like to lately
-Spending time with Corey and Sadie doing whatever
-Watching Corey spend time with our beautiful little girl (It melts my heart...)
-USC football (a huge fan!!! and it's almost football season!)
-Taking Sadie outside and watching her become fascinated with everything out there

There's many more that I could list but these are just a few that I thought I would share :)

Friday, July 22, 2011

Church Camp 2011

Boy oh boy what an adventure that was! I'll be the first to tell you that camping with a 5 month old is not the easiest but totally doable. Packing was interesting and I had lots of stuff!! I mean I was taking a baby and they require LOTS of stuff!! I was riding up with Tim Mannion and his poor little car was packed full with my stuff. His expression was priceless when he came to pick us up and saw everything.

 We arrived about 12pm on Monday, checked in and I headed to our cabin. Tim was nice enough to unload everything out of the car for me and I got busy setting things up. Well it's not the easiest to set things up when you have a screaming baby. She would not let me put her down at all. I got the job done and then we headed out to explore and see who else had arrived. Corey came up that night for services but had to head back down that night cause he had work the next day. It gets pretty lonely without your husband but I did my best. Sadie slept that whole night which was great!!

Tuesday was the same as Monday, a screaming baby who would not let me put her down. Halfway through the day I was ready to throw in the towel, say forget it, pack my things up and head home but I stopped and prayed for the Lord to give me patience and ease my frustrations. I was able to put Sadie down for a 3 hour nap and when she woke up she seemed to be in a better mood which was great! She did let a few people hold her so I thank those who helped out, especially Whitney. Corey was only able to come up at nights and then head back home except for Friday which he was there all day but boy was I glad to see him on those evenings.

I had volunteered to teach the Mommy and Me class and we had a nice time. We read bible stories, did crafts, had snacks and played around and explored. All the preachers did such a wonderful job, including my hubby. There was a total of 8 saved! Praise the Lord!! Trevor Mannion did a great job with campfire and all those silly and goofy activities. I was able to make a pine derby car and participate in the race but I didn't win. Oh well maybe next year.

Yup that's right! I'll head back next year with a one and a half year old!! We came back home Saturday and yes I was ready to be back home, in my own bed. Sadie was extremely happy to be back home with her toys, grandma and doggy. Camp was really great and exactly what I need to put me back into perspective and change my mood. Good job to everyone who participated and put on camp. It was fantastic!!

Angel Game/Dierks Bentley Concert

For Father's Day, Sadie got Corey some Angels tickets and he asked me to come along (haha). It was a pretty warm day but needless to say we had a great time! We decided to go to dinner at Olive Garden beforehand and it was delicious. I'm not big on italian food but it was really yummy!! After dinner (it was more like lunch), we headed to the stadium. We got there about two hours before the game started. I had asked to borrow Trevor's zoom lens but when we got to the gate they said it was too long and we had to go ALL THE WAY back to the car to put it away. Anyways after that we made it inside, checked out the team store and headed to our seats. They were pretty decent and the teams were doing batting practice. Balls were flying our way like crazy and let me tell you, the people who had come to our section were just as crazy about catching a ball. These people were SERIOUS BALL CATCHING PEOPLE! Even the little kids, they were running everywhere, jumpimg over seats and running into people just to catch a ball. Corey decided he wasn't gonna be that crazy so we just sat in our seats but lo and behold here comes a ball, Corey stands up and SMACK! the ball landed right in his glove! It was a great start to the game. The game started at 6 so we settled into our seats. The people in front of us had invited like 10 people to join them and you could tell that they weren't there for the game. They kept on getting up constantly, it was very annoying. We still had a good time anyways, especially since the Angels won!! Woot woot!! After the game was the concert and there were a ton of people there for that. It was about an hour long and it was pretty decent. Corey and I had a nice time getting out of the house though and spending time together on our date night!

5 Month pics!!

A little late but oh well......

Wednesday, July 6, 2011

4th of July

Sadie's first Fourth of July was fantastic! We spent the afternoon with our church fellowshipping, eating, playing games and just having a good time. Later that night, we went to watch fireworks with my brother and his family at the Country Club in Redlands. It was a pretty good show and Sadie loved them!! She was just staring at them and would get excited and wave her little arms around!

Pool time!!

Sadie absolutley loves the pool! We bought her one of the floaties that she can sit in and she just lounges around in it, kicking her feet and having a great time. She also enjoys when mommy or daddy takes her out of the floatie and moves her around in the pool. I think she might be swimming before she starts crawling or walking ;)